back to my roots

Posted on 27/10/2009 at 12:16 - Post Comment

DUTCHWOMANABROAD

sunday 25 october 2009

all by myself i went to holland. it has been a long long time since that happened. had to take some time off to be together with my mother. we see each other quite a number of time every year, but because of certain circumstances, not enough. so i took the decision i have to go more often to my home country, to see her and my people. everybody who knows me, knows very well i am always in the between. my girlfriends are still hoping that one day the dime will fall and that i will not be homesick anymore for holland, and finally except 100 % that my life is in ticino now. the weather wasn't bad when i arrived at the airport schiphol. driving home in the car, seeing for kilometers around flat land, home-home-home! the next day it started to rain, so mother dear and i changed plans. we wanted to go to amsterdam, but to enjoy at it's best you need a day without rain. so we went to the hague, my city of birth. went for a coffee in a bookstore, went to the museum, had lunch in a totally cute lunchroom, and went to the 'bijenkorf'(the  beehive), a dutch institution, a department store. memories of days long a go, going there accompanied by mother or grandmother. the next day we couldn't go to amsterdam because of business, and stayed in zoetermeer, where mom lives. in the evening i had to go and pick up something in the hague and then walked to a friend's house where i was going to have diner. walking 45 minutes thru places where i passed many times before. perfect, feeling so good. saturday we still wanted to go to amsterdam, but the weather was not great, so we decided to go for a walk in a beautiful park in the hague, clingendael. and as dutch are, we weren't the only ones in the rain.  ofcourse by that time i also started to think a bit about my people in ticno. missing my 3 guys and the whole animal farm at home and my dear friends. back in ticino i am very happy to be back again, seeing my ticino surroundings. but dear girlfriends, i am still no step further in my quest where i belong, i am still rolling between two places. and i don't care, i am the lucky person who has two places in the world to call home.